\ muddled thoughts!!!!: April 2005

Thursday, April 14, 2005

IT HAS ENDED!!!!

it's over!!!!......we're in the morning shift already, even if i don't want it i have no choice -- we have to be there.....i know i'll be having a hard time coz i'm used to work at night and sleep at morning...i guess my body clock will be affected again..... :) it's kindda sad coz when we left the night shift we also left our other batchmates from 2.0........oh well that's life, you can't have everything that you want..... :) dami ko pa namang close dun.....anyways, camp na both kids and youth i was so disappointed kasi di man lang ako nakadalaw sa kids camp, and i'm not even sure kung makakadalaw ako sa youth coz it will be our training for texas reject letters....funny pa nga kung pano ko nagpaalam to file a leave.....i talked to ms. angie our manager and asked her if i could file a leave on friday, apr. 22,then she asked ms. liz kung malaki ba ang mawawala pag umabsent for that day....then i rememberna training pla un.....sabi pa nga ni ms. liz "okei lang if she can cope up naman"....sobrang ako ung nahiya....she allowed me naman to have my leave kaso parang ako na yung nahiya :) funny n0h :) hehehehe.....tpos kanina nakita nya ko sa pantry and asked me kung itutuloy ko yung leaveko and i just said "parang nahiya na po ako" and natawa lang sya....i just realize na nakakatawaako :) ryt now i still don't know if i'll go but i need to decide agad.....by the way dito na kamisa my pantry nakastation....as in kami lang tpos lahat nagagawa kso mas humigpit sa internet panoba naman 'tong mga kasama ko kahit nagpro-process nagi-internet....pero at least kami lang ang nandito :) nxt week will be another chapter sa buhay namin dito sa accenture...training again forimage naman.....tatagal kaya ako ng 1 year????? malalaman ko din yun tsaka kayo din....kasi me and my bestfriend had a serious talk na we'll finish our contract here, pero lam nyo naman na nagbabago ang tao especially there decisions.....sabi nga nila burn that bridge when you get thereso wag muna nating isipin yun ha.....:) another good thing pala kasama na namin si friendship kevinand rachel sa image....o diba saya na...14 na kami sa image not including wave1 :) nakakakaba kasithey said that the american trainor is kindda strict and forward....i really don't know what to expect but i need to be ready for the worst thing to arrive diba!!! sige hanggang dito na lang muna bka may mga masabi pa kong di dapat....hehehehehe :) *wink*

Saturday, April 02, 2005

FRIENDS!!!!

kailangan bang may masirang friendship ng dahil sa isang tao??? hindi ba mashadong lame??? pero kung iisipin mo meron talagang my nangyayaring ganon diba.... siguro kasi mashado mong pinahahalagahan yung isang tao na sa tingin naman nung isa na nadidisregard na sya o di na sya napapansin hanggang umabot sa point na parang dun ka na lang sa isa....unfair n0h???pano kung gusto mong makasama yung kaibigan mo tpos gusto nya makasama yung isa nyang kaibigan..does she have to choose between the two of them....pano kung nafi-feel mo na yung isa yung pipiliin nya di ba sobrang sakit nun!!! kaya sobra talagang mahirap maging attached, one secondthey're there the next second they're gone....as my bestfriend told me....iba lang daw yung meaning sa kin ng friendship kaya lagi akong nasasaktan pag may nawawala. siguro tama sya sobra kasi ko ma-attached kaya hirap maglet go kung oras na....but for me siguro ganun lang talaga ko mag-treasure ng friends....they do leave footprints agad....hirap maiwan n0h....naranasan mo naba yun na parang nasa ere ka lang....sabi nung iba okei lang yan kasi madami ka namang kaibigan at dadami pa pero siguro di nila naiintindihan na each person has their own identity di ba kahit kambal magkaiba, so kahit gaano kadami pumalit sa kaibigan mo, di nila kayang gawin....distinctkasi sya eh....mag-momorning shift na daw kami....sobrang nakakalungkot kasi diba dmi kong kaibigan sa 2.0 and leaving them in the night shift is hard for me....mababaw ba??? siguro sa iba...haaaayyyy....dumadating talaga sa buhay ng tao na kailangan mawala....gusto kong maniwalang kaya sila dumadating kasi life has enough reasons to do that....maybe i'll learn something from them, hopefully....i don't wanna think about it but i can't help it....pagagalitan na naman ako ng bestfriend ko, sasabihin nya "ayan ka na naman crissel," ksi daw i expect a lot from a person kaya pag nawala sobrang down ako....m trying to change para hindi masakit kala ko ganun lang kadali, mahirap pla.....basta if you know you're on the loosing end unti-unti ka nang bumitaw para di ka biglang malalaglag baka kasi mashado kang masaktan eh....basta ako i'll make sure na i'll take it one step at a time....mahirap na....baka maiwan uli ako......